| Okay well i had a very interesting week soo far well i don't know if you know but lacy williams wrote a long and very understanding entry just recently...but you see the difference between hers and mine is that hers has a VERY happy Ending!!! When i wish mine would too but ... unfortunatly it doesn't and i don't want anyone to feel sorry for me i just need prayer ... CAuse you see every relationship that i have been in just for some odd reason just has not worked out for anything and that really upsets me cause i try and try but it's just not enough.... But when i got home from kristina's today i went to my room and pulled out 3 shoe boxes of notes.... Girls you will most likely remember doing this more than the boys would.... Well i was reading them and i had some from 5th grade all the way through 10 grade and i sat there for a minute and realized that i have gained new friends but i'm slowly slipping away from my old friends and i really do miss hanging out with them cause we had soo much fun .... NOW don't get me wrong i have soo MUCH FUN with my new friends but i just miss all the fun times that me and lacy and heather, terri,amber, morgan, Lasey.... it's just soo Awkward now cause i try to talk to them but it just seems weird cause when we start to talk we just really have nothing to talk about at all anymore and i hate that.... I really do!!!! But One day i really wanna get together with all my elementary friends that i had or once had and we should just hang out and just try to have that much fun that we could ... when we were so much smaller then we are now!!!
But Now ... i remember when liking boys was soo GROSS!!! And you didn't wanna go near them cause they annoyed you and even worse would chase you around and make you soo mad.... But now if you look at it ... you still feel that way just not the GROSS part.... && when i look at all my friends and their boyfriends or their past relationships ... i just get soo heart-broken ... Because they seem soo happy and they feel like nothing in this whole world could make them be apart .... && i remember me sitting there just always wishing that some guy would come and just magically sweep me off my feet like in cinderella ... or snow white.... or any disney movie really lol.... But i have thought about this soo much since i have read lacy's entry on her xanga cause she seems like she is soo happy and she sounds like it too and i'm glad ... VeRy Glad that she is happy but i just wish that i had something like her you know.... and sometimes you just need other people's experiences or words of wisdom as some like to call it.... just so that you can come to realize that they guy you have now is the one or he isn't ... and when it comes down to that you want him to be the one but sometimes it just doesn't turn out that way... But i just really have some person in mind and every one of my friend that i have told about this person they think that it would work .... but i don't want to let that person know yet.... cause i just don't want anything to get mixed up or somthing like that.....
Well i think that is all i'm going to leave with you guys for now... because rite now i feel soo bad at the moment... soo if you want to leave words of encouragement that would help soo much !!! I will write back later!!!
The only things you ever really have
are the ones you hold inside your heart. <3
As i hold back the tears ;;
i think to myself, why can't i love what i have? </3
i used to believe in forever, but forever's too good to be true <3
   
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| SUMMER O6'
Wow...!!! Well First off Today has been a Very Eventful Day!!! Well since i got my license i told kalon when i get it i would come visit... Well me and my girl Nikkii Went over there and it was fun i guess you could say he had 30 dollars lol well anyways as we were leaving we saw josh mowing and i hollered at him out my window and so he stopped mowing for a little bit to come talk to me and nikkii && It was fun and So good to see everybody that i saw today since i haven't seen them since school has been out!!! But that is okay well if you ever want me to come get you or something just call me you all know where i will be well i have some NEWS!!! I will be in Blue Bayou For 2 Days Friday and Saturday soo Please Leave ALOT of comments for me to read for when i get back and i would really love it okay Bye You Guys Be SafE!!
Random Pictures!!!
&* She Sparkles Inside &* Out ©
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| I GOT MY LICENSE!!
I GOT IT FRIDAY!!!
YAY!!!! (0;
RANDOM PICUTRES SORRY!!!
This Crazy Kid.... But hey i still Love him!!!
He's Not GAY I PROMISE!!!!
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| OH Wow ... First off .. let me say that last nite i went to the movies with NIIKKII, DAMEIN, KIM, && Brianna!!!! We went to See THE OMEN last nite and was that a sCARy Movie Or what..???? And Soo Many people from tioga were there Like Ken G., and Jamie T., Chip, Bernard, Caitlin, && soo many more but yea i went to niikkii's yesterday and we chilled at britt lynns' for a lil while... cause we were gettin ready to go out to eat and go to the movies well then Brianna came and we knew it was off to eating we go... LOL and then we got a call from kim sayin that we had to pick a place that was kind of healthy cause she's haveing to go on a diet soo we chose.... OUT LAWS!!! lol Then we joked around and all that good stuff as usual!!! Then on the Way home we were just a dancing... But that is all that me and niikkii do anyways LOL!!! Well imma go!!!
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And Last but NOT LEAST!!!
  
  
Missed and Certainly NOt forgotten!!
We LOVE YOU JAYSHON!! YOU will be in OUR
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